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(Sunday, November 18, 2007-)
+12:25 AM]*

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hey guys!
hmmm.
i'm gonna post 4 lyrics of my favourite korean songs with translations.
i don't know why these songs really get to me.
whenever i hear it,
tears will come flowing down my cheeks.
if you guys watch the drama and accompanied by the songs,
its even sadder.
it really gets to you.
anyways,
all 4 are from the drama called " 천국에 계단 - Stairway To Heaven "
aight.

#1 천국의 기억 - Heaven's Memory
비록 그것이 한 번 정당하더라도, 저에 보기
저에게 당신의 심혼의 다만 작은 부분을 주십시오~
저것은 나가 원하는 유일한 것이다
당신이 항상 천국에서 나의 것 있을 것이기 때문에.
다른 사람 같이
열심히 당신이 저를 위해 밖으로 도달하는 것을 시도해서 어떻게 할지라도 당신은 이제까지는 떨어져 있다
당신은 저를 도달할 수 없다
우리는 만질 수 없다
그것은 암흑에 있는 슬픈 꿈 같이 이다
그리고 우리는 일어날 수 없는 정당한 사람들이다
* 나는 나가 실수했다는 것을 알고 있다
그러나 나는 나가 멀리에서~
가 있고 싶다
비록 나가 살아 있더라도, 그것은 나가 죽은 처럼 보인다
떠나지 말라! 저를 남겨두지 말라!
이 순간에 나는 당신 나의~
사랑 지금도 유물이다, 그래서 나는 고독하지 않다
나는 당신의 눈에서 당신 줄 것이다
비록 다만 작은 조금이더라도, 다만 조금.
당신이 나의 심혼을 가지고 갈 때,
나가 다시 잊어 하고자 한 기억에 있는 나의 눈물 가을
나는 당신을 영원히 사랑할 것이다
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Even if it is just once, look at me
Give me just a small part of your heart~
That is the only thing that I want
Because you will always be mine in heaven.
Like a different person
You're so far away that no matter how hard you try to reach out for me
You can't reach me
We can't touch
It is like a sad dream in the darkness
And we are just people who can't wake up
* I know I've made mistakes
But I want to have you~
I'll protect you from afar
Even though I'm alive, it seems like I'm dead
Don't leave! Don't leave me!
At this moment I am with you~
My love still remains, so I'm not lonely
I'll give myself to you in your eyes
Just a little bit, even if it is just a tiny bit.
When you take my heart,
My tears fall in the memory I'd forgotten again
I will love you forever

#2 편지 - Letter
당신은 나가 이다 더 슬프게 보인다
보다는 더 슬프게 보인다
저 때문에 당신은 거친 시간을 보냈다
당신은 저를 남겨두고 있다
이 슬픈 기억으로 체재하지 말라
그들이 아주 저쪽에 흐르고 눈물로 사라지게 하십시오
유구한 눈물,
그러나 나는 지금 기억의 저 눈물이 글썽한 강을 건너고 있다
*나는, 것 좋을 것이다 확실히 이다
당신은 나의 심혼에서 유일한 것살이다
비록 당신이 아주 저쪽에 가더라도, 나는 고독하지 않을 것이다
비록 나가 얼마나 사랑해요 당신을 보여줄 수 없더라도
당신의 눈을 감으십시오… 닫거든 당신은 저를 찾아내지 않을 것이다
나는 나가 느낀 사랑에 관하여 모두를 잊을 것이다*
당신이 아주 저쪽에 이기 때문에 당신은 다시 돌아올 수 없다
나는 상실되고 갈망을 지울 수 없다
나는 나가…
여기에서 서 있고 있다는 것을 잊을 것이다
*반복
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You seem sadder than I am
Because of me you had tough times
You're leaving me
Don't stay with these sad memories
Let them flow far away and disappear with the tears
Eternal tears,
But now I'm crossing that teary river of memories
*I'm alright, things will be okay
You are the only one in my heart
Even if you go far away, I won't be lonely
Even if I can't show you how I love you
Close your eyes...and you won't find me
I'll forget all about the love I felt *
Because you're far away you can't come back again
I'm lost and can't erase the longing
I'll forget that I am standing here...
* Repeat

#3 다만 저것 - Just That

나는 아직도 그것을 믿을 수 없다

이 세계에서 당신 없이

저에 관하여 모두는 정당한 아주 슬프다

나는 아주 무용하게 느낀다

당신이 저에게 다시 돌아온 경우에

*합창*

그 때 나는 당신이 떠나게 하지 않을 것입니다

나는 저것 보다는 좀더 당신을 아무거나 약속할 수 없다

그러나 당신이 다만 다시

가버리는 경우에
나는 무엇을 할 것일 인가?

당신은 나가 나의 심혼에서,
나 느낀 모두를 저것을 믿고 싶었다는 것을 알고 있었다
우리가 유감스러웠던 말한 대로 시간 통행이 더 당신 미소한 후에
이렇게 지금 나는 즐거운 추억을 통해 나의 슬픈 얼굴을 지울 것이다
당신은 저 안에 항상 살고 나는 당신을 걱정할 것이다
나는 돌아오기 위하여 당신을 기다리고 있다
*반복
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I still can't believe it
Without you in this world
Everything about me is just so sad
I feel so useless
*CHORUS*
If you came back to me again
Then I wouldn't let you leave
I can't promise you anything more than that.
But if you just go away again
What am I to do?
You knew everything I felt in my heart,
I wanted to believe in that
After more time passes you'll smile as we say sorry
So now I'll erase my sad face through the happy memories
You will always live within me and I'll care for you
I'm waiting for you to come back
* Repeat

#4 나는 당신을 놓친다 - I Miss You
나는, 나 다만 여기에서 기다릴 것이다 가지 않을 것이다
당신의 옆에 울어 바보 같이
나는 당신이 저를 낙상해야 한지 왜 모른다
나는 기다려기, 나 계속해서 떠나지 않을 것이다
나는 당신을, 나 놓친다 당신을 놓친다
때때로 당신은 저를 미워할지도 모른다
나는 저를 위해, 아래로 무릎을 꿇는다 울고 싶다
거기 우리가 그것에 관하여 해서 좋은 아무것도 끈 일지모른는 경우에
*합창*
미치게 인의 기억 사랑에서
나는 그 기억에서 당신을 찾아낸다
우리는 사랑에서 더 많은 것 있을 수 없었다
나는 당신을 위해 이것을 선택하지 않을 것이다
나는 결코 일어나게 한다 그것이
그러나 나는 당신이 죽기 때문에 당신을 놓칠 것이다
나는 당신을, 나 놓친다 당신을 놓친다
때때로 당신은 저를 미워할지도 모른다
나는 이것이 적당한 방법다는 것을 믿는다
나는 당신에게 가기 위하여 떠나고 있다
*반복
나는 당신이 죽다는 것을 잊고 싶다
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I won't go, I'll just wait here
Like a fool crying beside you
I don't know why you had to hurt me
I won't leave, I'll keep on waiting
I miss you, I miss you
At times you may hate me
I want to cry, kneel down for me
If may turn out that there nothing we can do about it
*CHORUS*
The memory of being madly in love
I find you in those memories
We couldn't have been more in love
I won't choose this for you
I will never let it happen
But I'll miss you as you're dead
I miss you, I miss you
At times you may hate me
I believe this is the right way
I'm leaving to go to you
* Repeat
I want to forget that you're dead

Sweet ain't it??
These lyrics really mean alot to me i guess.
That's why i get really emotional upon listening to these songs.
Anywho, I gotta go now.
Post later!
Love y'all!!

lets put an end to this x)
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(Wednesday, November 14, 2007-)
+7:24 PM]*

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hey dearest.
my blog is under construction.
so, i wont update till everything's done.
sorry, yeah?
anyway, if you want me to link you up or relink you,
please leave you link and your name in my tagboard.
thank you.
i'll link you up asap.
thank you again and love y'all!
sorry for the inconvenience caused.

lets put an end to this x)
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(Sunday, July 29, 2007-)
+5:51 PM]*

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its been exactly one week since i've posted.

alot of things happen.

school-relaed and also friends-related.

don't worry.

i'll give the amber alert, 911 or just the details.

fyi.

americans cheerleaders clique are the one who uses 'amber alert' to describe 'details'.

while '911' are for those who are just normal kids in the american world.

lets start with today.

i'm making full use of this half an hour to surf the net.

be it blogging or myspacing or friendster.

i can't use too long of the net.

i've exceeded the monthly usage. :

have to wait till tuesday to use the net for long.

hahaha.

usual sunday morning.

i tried to sleep in but i couldn't.

i think i had limited 8 hrs sleep.

i slept like around 1.30 yesterday.

and i woke up about 9.30?

hmm.

lazy to get out of bed,

i read my book, french kiss, trying to finish it.

ah yes.

i succeded.

not finished but left only 73 pages.

the book is awesome.

then, my mum called told me to come over for breakfast.

mee goreng kuning.

yumm!

after eating,

i walked about the house to tend to my lovable cats.

8 adult cats, 3 teen cats, 5 junior cats and 5 kittens.

alot, right??

i used to have 33 cats in total but they either died or lost.

after that,

my mum force me to go to jemputan next block.

irritating sehz.

but there's this one guy quite handsome plus i saw wahid satay there too.

does that mean he's my sedare jauh?

hmmm.

when i reach home,

i stuff myself with chocolate ice-cream.

double yumm!

and i watch big mamas.

my sunday programme.

Hwijae, the host still as hot as ever.

one of the special guest, Kim Jongseo looks exactly like Firman.

talking about him,

i miss him, badly.

i miss my third brother in taiwan too.

it is so ironic that he had to leave for taiwan during my prelims.

haiz.

my burning questions on maths, physics and chem are left unanswered.

last week.

a whole week of exams.

been going home early and ended up sleeping till evening.

but last thursday was quite a torturous day.

i got lost at nyp then at tp lastly at toa payoh.

all thanks to my cousin who gave the wrong info about nyp.

and my idiotic friend for asking us to take the wrong bus from tp.

i've been falling asleep about anywhere that i sat stationery.

haha.

anyway,

arif.

what you did was super foolish.

it cost you alot of hatred and also your cca points and awards.

i'm sorry for pointing you the middle finger.

i forgive you.

everyone makes mistake.

anyway,

hanisah finally attached.

i'm happy for her.

kudos to her!

cheerios!

ecal!

you gotta take care of her heart or else...

okay.

that's all i am posting.

it feels like a burden of my chest.

ahhhh yess.

((:

oh yeahhh.

mr bk.

i love you.

be hot!

sizzling hot!

i'll make you a mee bandung. aight?

hahaha.

to end this post officially,

here's something that lovable Firman Suri had sent me through friendster message.

on 25th September 2005.

we never got that far, this helps me to think all

through the night...

the bright lights won't kill me now or tell mehow..

just u and i ur starless stare remains..

hip hip hooray for me..u talked to me..

kill me in my sleep...

i'll paint these walls with pitchfork red....

its just so dark..

for what u did to me..and what i'll do to u..

you'll get what everyone gets..

you'll get a lifetime...

im so dirty babe..

lets put an end to this x)
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(Sunday, July 22, 2007-)
+9:44 AM]*

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hey.
its been forever since i've blogged.
hmmm.
wanted to blog on friday the 13th.
because my dear friend, lyla got struck a bad patch.
it was super classic.
haha.
but not gonna talk about it now.
today's post is about what i'm feeling now.
and im not gonna go to sleep till i speak my mind.

i hope some way or somehow,
this message will get to iswandy.
either he is very rajin or giler to read my blog,
or its because someone told him about my post.

i've tried my fcuking best to forget you.
tried to leave my past memories involving you behind.
be it happy ones or heart-wrenching ones.
but it seems that it wont go.
rather, its holding me back.
not letting me move forward.
every now and then things that happened between us will re-enact in my mind.
people are telling me to let it go.
i want to.
but it just wouldnt leave.
the more i tried,
the more it'll stay.
why in the first place do i have to know you???!
why were you the one saving me from the freaking slap??
btw, almost getting that slap was because of something i didnt say.
and yes.
he have to be my hero.
my urghh guardian angel.
ahh. yes.
that's the word.
just looking at one picture reminds me of everything.

today, i wanted to talk to you.
but i was actually quite scared to get your sacarsm.
which i usually dont.
so, i didnt.
instead,
i read your previous posts that has my name.
which is only two.

let me copy paste it.
and even though he blocked the left button on the mouse to prevent ripping,
i still can copy it.
haha. ((:
there's such thing as cntrl c, for goodness sake.
1st post:
Tuesday, September 20, 2005
well, i seriously dunno when 4e3 gonna wake up, september going to end, and we still slacking. well 4e3 attitude during prelims
- dun even noe wat paper on the day.- sleep after 5 mins of starting time.- sticking chewing gums under the desk.- talking during paper.
haiz these are some of the worst factor and the last things u wanter to happen during prelims, but it jus happen.lols.
+ this is our fate, im yours. + hE leFt @ 11:11 AM . + - +
well, i'm ok now. i get rid of the feeling already. so dun worry bout me. well i'm jus afraid if this feeling came back hunting me, cos a few month is already my Os. so i hope u will be wit ur guy, so that i won't fall fer u fer the time being. so i'm considering myself lucky to be in this situation.well, yesterday mathc between man u and liverpool and up in a goaless draw. so too bad eQa, ur beloved liverpool doesn't win over man u. its a boring match actually, but doesn't matter anyway my mind wasn't fully on that match though.so to everyone that has been supporting me, thanks ya! especially FADLIANA! woohoo, she rocks my socks!
+ this is our fate, im yours. + hE leFt @ 4:26 AM . + - +
2nd post:
Sunday, September 25, 2005
i need a gerl, but not now. studies first, but here are some criteria.
- understand the importance of MAN U to me.- who will eat together with me.- who is not fussy about eating places.- who understand me.- who live with a simple life.- who will love me.
haha, take it to ur mind as if i'm desperate. but actually im doing this so i could stop further arguement if u were to be with me lar. well every guy need gerls, at least one though.i wouldnt go fer u if ure the vogue, oh-so popular gerl. bcos, once u have popularity, u tend to forget those beside u. well, gerls. i would rather have that simple person who understand me, rather then i always need to understand u. play it fair ya. and ya, i'm not son of a oil tycoon or something, i still depend on my parents fer money. so i can't shower u with stuff like anyone else. maybe that will happen in de future lah, but fer now. im still studying and not working. so hope whoever u are understand ya.wellÂ², enough say.i'll noe fad would be the first one to say she's fit the bill, but i treat u, no more then a fren? the most as little sis...? hehe.
+ this is our fate, im yours. + hE leFt @ 10:00 AM . + - +

the 2nd post really aggravated me like fcuk.
eat shit lah him.
but when i read this again.
tears start to stream down my cheeks.
i miss him.
shucks.
i still love him.
i know that very well.
no mater how shitty he can be,
i still love him more than anything.
see?
this is what i always have in my mind whenever i'm alone.
i wanted to talk to because he once said that he's always there for me.
he's always just a phone away.
there's more.
im not stating all.
i've deleted the freaking conver or else i could use as proof.
haiz.
to end this shit,
i wanna say this to iswandy.
I WANNA L♥VE YOU FOREVER.
plus. the picture above.

ending this whole post,

here's a poem/something.

coutesy of my long lost brother, firman.

we never got that far, this helps me to think all

through the night...

the bright lights won't kill me now or tell mehow..

just u and i ur starless stare remains..

hip hip hooray for me..u talked to me..

kill me in my sleep..

i'll paint these walls with pitchfork red....

its just so dark..

for what u did to me..and what i'll do to u..

you'll get what everyone gets..

you'll get a lifetime...

im so dirty babe..

i dont know if there's any relation to my post but who cares.

ttyl.

lets put an end to this x)
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(Tuesday, July 10, 2007-)
+11:45 PM]*

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hello, earthlings.
hahaha.
live earth is still in my head.
can't stop thinking how ironic it is.
hahahaha.

in about 216++ hrs,
i'll be taking my english prelims.
thinking about it kind of filling me with anxiety.
well,
tml i'll be taking pre-prelims paper 1.
even more nerve-wrecking.
i'm really very weak in paper 1.
especially in trigonometry.
ohmygod.

hmm.
my life is still improving for the better.
as usual,
there's nowhere around school will i walk with a gloomy face.
i've been really happy.
i find out things that i don't expect to happen and also had fun studying.

i've been really going home late like everyday.
after remedials,
i will stayback at the study corner with lyla to study.
help her in maths.
its quite challenging.
but i love it.
hahahaha. ((:

i've been really looking forward to dnt lesson since yesterday.
i'm having 2hr-period tomorrow.
yay!
but seriously,
i'm NOT looking forward for malay classes.
i really HATE malay classes even i'm a malay.

oh yeah.
no doubt,
someone TRIED to find fault with me.
its MY CHOICE to text whoever.
and DON'T butt in.
and saying 'hell' doesn't literally mean hell.
DUMB.
PLEASE learn to INFER when someone said hell.
fyi, whenever i say 'hell', it means I'M NOT GONNA CARE WHAT'S GONNA HAPPEN.
UNDERSTAND, child?

sometimes.
i DON'T feel her showing care and concern as a BFF should do.
she would just show the face that she practically DON'T care.
and she EXPECTS me to show some care and concern whenever she tell me HER problems.
which i did, fyi.
when i confide in her, she'll just give me an annoying answer.
that's NOT what BFF do, huns.

ohmygod.
everyone must check out these bands at myspace:
the bright star alliance: http://www.myspace.com/thebrightstaralliance
goodnight combat fighter: http://www.myspace.com/goodnightcombatfighter
plain whit t's: http://www.myspace.com/plainwhitets
its a MUST to check them out.
you'll dig it, for sure.

okay, earthlings.
hahaha.
stop it.
blog soon, y'all.

P.S: i LOVE andrea.
she ROCKS my SOCKS.
<333333333

lets put an end to this x)
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(Saturday, July 07, 2007-)
+1:36 PM]*

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hello.
its been two months since i've updated.
apparently,
i've been online-ing for quite some time.
almost everyday, i mean.
but too lazy to update.
i'm finally updating it because practically,
i'm bored and also because today is o7o7o7.

live earth, o7o7o7
that's what everyone has been talking about
well.
i'm kind of excited too.
who's not?
more than 100 artists coming together performing to bring awareness.
but my level of excitement faded after i heard what the dj that's covering for shan wee said.

WHAT IS LIVE EARTH?
Live Earth is a 24-hour,
7-continent concert series taking place on 7/7/07 that will bring together more than 100 music artists and 2 billion people to trigger a global movement to solve the climate crisis.
WHAT IS ITS MESSAGE?
to bring awareness to everyone in the world that our climate is in crisis.
HOW TO SOLVE IT?
1) 3Rs: Recycle, Reuse, Reduce
2) Start switching: Switch off anything that uses electricity when not in use.
the list goes on and on.

whatever the ways are,
let's all crack our brains and think.
aren't they using tons of electricity by having this 24hr concert?
for the lightings and speakers and stuffs?
ironic, isn' it?
me and rafi were talkng about it.
we also think that wearing green isn't saving the earth.
so, to hell whether you wear it or not.
and also,
its already too late to save the earth.
so, me and rafi planned to make a polluting team,
and pollute sentosa since east coast is already polluted with rubbish.
what do you think?
hahaha.
its just a joke anyway if any environmentalist stumbled upon my blog.

okay.
stop this live earth crap and back to my life.
i had planned to go for sp open house.
i didn't and i'm stuck at home.
i didn't because i got no accompanyment and also,
my right legs got rashes.
from the back of my calf up to my thighs.
all thanks to the dirty carpet i sat on in the library yesterday.

talking about yesterday,
me and fahlyn decided to eat at long john silver at jurong entertainment.
when we cut through it to find a seat outside,
my eyes scan through the counter area to look for the cute malay guy that served me a few weeks back.
he wasn't around and i'm quite disappointed.
but i just take it slow.
we managed to find seats outside.
practically, there was no one.
we went into order our food.
ohmygod!
he was behind the counter at the near the backdoor!
maybe he was in the kitchen when i came.
i was super ecstatic that i queued at this line leading to his counter.
plus,
he noticed me and was smiling to see me.
and i was wearing the same thing when he saw me weeks ago.
then,
fahlyn told me to buy with her,
so i went to her and ordered my food at the other counter.
i made a fool out of myself again infront of him.
i can see that he also laugh at my sillyness.

after buying,
fahlyn dumped me with the fucking heavy tray without opening the freaking door for me.
hahaha.
when i went out, guess who i saw?
MR YONG!!!!
ohmygod.
i was totally freaked out that i told fahlyn not to look at his direction yet she looked.
i just pretended not to see him and just sit and eat.
when i was eating, i looked to the ljs backdoor.
then, he came out and saw me.
he saw me already, contented and he went in quickly.
apparently,
i caught him looking.
i was blushing away.
he did that twice.
hahahaha.

you know,
my life since school reopens never been better.
i had never go around school without a smile.
only because of one incident happened last wednesday that made me really mad.
thinking back,
it was childish of me to be mad over something so small like the maths consultation timing.
but its also childish of her to think that i raised my voice at her when my voice is naturally loud.
its been days now that i haven't been talking to her.
except for last thursday, during chem.
i had to talked to her because of what yan did.
assholic pervert.

but sometimes at home,
when texting fahlyn,
she gets on my nerves.
ALOT!
ever since she got to know this guy named mas,
her neighbour whom she said he's hot looking with solid body but he's not.
she always, NEVER FAILS to talk about him to me.
everything we talked about like all the random stuffs,
she relates it to him.
how irritating can it be?
VERY.
plus,
she always ditched her study sessions with me to go out with him.
no, wait.
she's been doing that even to go out with ben.
i don't mind if i'm not being invited but its really infuriating to study alone.
i got no one to ask for help.
my brother is already back in camp uh.

she still have the mood to watch movies and crap when its only a week or two left to prelims.
especially when she planned to watch harry potter and ditch the study time just days before prelims.
she's mad and i don't know what else to say to her.
i don't get it why people still into this harry potter-esque.
its so DUMB with all the magics and stuffs.
to all the harry potter fans: HARRY POTTER SUCKS!!!

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blog soon y'all.

lets put an end to this x)
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(Thursday, May 17, 2007-)
+1:20 AM]*

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hello.
its been a while since i update this blog.
oh well.
just now during dnt.
we talked abt taggers.
and nad says 4e3'o7 has changed.
arif second it.
saying that its not like 3e3'o6.
i was thinking.
who changed us?
im sure we know.
only we shut up.
i may be the one but i feel there's someone else who caused the drastic change.
not saying anyone.
but doesn't this make you thinking?
well,
it does for me.
when i have some me time.

these days i've been laughing at nothing.
also get excited over wwe.
can't wait for 21st may.
the tickets will be out.
and i can't believe that i said something out loud.
i mean among eqa, ct, eika and haney.
i said i only wanna go the wresting thing with him.
only him, no one else.
who knows the dream will come true.
i mean its rare for us to go out together.

ohmygod?
next week is mock exam week.
then next two week is malay o'level.
my june holidays is a school month.
awh-some..... NOT!
oh well.
more income.
i had to miss the genting trip.
crap.

i think band is crap too.
i dont enjoy every second of it.
oh well.
i think the school's awhsome couple is bullshit.
they look sucky together.
because they're assholic jerks.

talking about jerks,
i miss mr wong loads.
not saying he's a jerk.
but he always call people jerk.
he's away for reservice.
till the last day of school.
awh.
im really missing the chem-cursing lesson with him.
oh well.

my friend's nick really make me wonder.
if he say, " give me ur face to spit at "
can he literally get that?
if he can,
i want.
oh please.

im craving for hugs.
someone grant me, please?
i want it from uhhh..
iswandy can?
hahahaha.
i've been missing him.
fahlyn has been missing shah.
can someone help me pass the message to these two guys?
wait.
i can get it thru iswandy myself.
but not shah.
oh well.

okay.
i cant wait to go home now.
please.
i got phy test to study for.
haha.

oh yeah.
let me share this lyric with you.
awesomely sweet.
courtesy of elsa kidspy.

though you're far away
i know we can be together
heart to heart and hand in hand
i can't wait till i see you
again
maybe someday i will be right there with you

you make my heart beat
faster than any drum
you make my heart go
whoaaaaa
i can't wait till i'm
in your arms
again

this distance is killing me
so baby please stop this reality and be with me cuz
i can't wait till i see you
again
maybe someday i will be right there with you

you make my heart beat
faster than any drum
you make my heart go
whoaaaa
i can't wait till im in your arms again.

lets put an end to this x)
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